End of the day

I’m in Germany. I’ve got 71 days before I get married to a Swede in my homestate of Utah. Which is not in the middle of the US as so many people in Europe surmise. But I learned recently that most Europeans consider the US to have California on the left, New York on the right, Texas in the middle, Florida on the bottom right, and every other state to be somewhere in the middle.

I’m working on asking the right questions- or trying to find the right questions to ask, before getting married. Not burying myself in staying entertained. (I recently followed random links to fanfics not long ago- but consistantly finding good stuff is so needle in a haystack) I don’t want to keep my mind drugged from reality. I don’t want to deny my time the worth it has, or my friends time, my family the ear and updates they want.

And yet, here I am. Maybe I’m too unmotivated to open up my diary and write stuff here. Maybe I’m hoping someone will want to read what I have to say be cause I’ll stumble upon interesting and creative genius stuff later on.

I’m a girl who is figuring out life, and the drastic change that will come. I’m a Christian, trying to learn how to rely on the Lord’s strength while mine is drastically lacking. I’m getting ready to perform in German tomorrw, for a Seventh Day Adventist Church.

My happy list today is-1)sunshine, 2)my fiancee’s smile, 3)German flowing miraculously out of my mouth 4)seeing my family in 2 months 5)writing again.